I only had about one year of community college and it was awful. I had no intention of being there, but it was for the satisfaction of my parents that I attended. I was horrible at math, had little interest in attending any of my classes, but political science. That was my only interest. I began to struggle and eventually ended up disappointing my parents, for I knew that an undergraduate education, wasn’t for me. To be in classrooms with other students, would deviate my attention from actual work, I began to daydream of being elsewhere. It was all just a waste of time for me.
I had no intentions of being an aristocrat and found myself completely bewildered by the entire experience. My parents, on the other hand, found it imperative that I push on because what was I going to do without an education. I had only received a GED. I felt obliged to listen to my parents because they didn’t attend college, so I felt compelled to satisfy them. I contemplated everyday how I would break the news to my parents, that I failed many of my classes due to not attending. I had no intention to become an innovator, therefore, why bother. I felt then, just as I feel now that post-secondary education is for those people who feel that they will take their knowledge, with the degree they achieved, to fulfill a dream of theirs. I never had those dreams, I didn’t have the spirit or the capacity to be in a collegiate society. I was felt completely abject in that environment. All the while, I felt completely exasperated with all my teachers and fellow students. It wasn’t the place for me. I never, not once took the initiative in any assignment or class project. Their were times, where I had to work as a team and that didn’t work to well with my introversion.
It’s almost 10 years since I’ve attended any classes, and let me say…I’ve learned more, on my own, than a classroom has ever taught me.