It doesn’t take much for life to turn on itself. The same goes for nature. When everything is how it should be one second, then completely turn on itself the next. When the destructive patterns start to become routine and all else feels awkward has become the existence of today. The calmness of family, watching family fun television shows takes a back seat because of the fact that it’s just an illusion of how life should be, isn’t how life really is.
It’s true that we make our choices and we have to deal with them, but when asking for forgiveness isn’t enough, then what? Losing all that means all is just what isn’t needed when life is turning upside down. It’s the same as being kicked while your down. Eventually the instinct of blood rushing, survival kicks in and nothing makes sense anymore to live the life of rationale. Everything becomes irrational, everything….then comes the bottom…the point of nothing matters, having nothing to lose, and that is what makes for the worst possible scenario.
Is this the time to pray to God? It’s been almost two years of asking, praying, reading the bible, the rosary, in depth religious order and nothing. All that comes with the territory of being one with God and/or finding Him has become irrelevant.
More To Come….